DIVINE TIMING

"Wherever you are, be all there." 

-Jim Elliot

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Picture it, if you will...

It's early on a January Saturday (Sicily, 2025...just kidding...#gg), and I am petsitting (not hard to imagine, I know). I am staying in a lovely home with 2 adorable fur kids and am heading down the grand staircase to go and let the dogs out. I have a coffee cup in one hand and am holding the railing with other hand, careful to navigate, stay balanced, and pay attention to my progress to the bottom. I make it 8/10ths of the way down the staircase, and I think I'm home free, so my mind drifts to the day head and the tasks I want to accomplish as my hand loosens it grip...

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The Universe had been warning me for months to pay attention and be present, and I would say 'you are right. 100%. I'm on it.',. and then I would go right back to multitasking my way through my life: making lists for the future and trying to do too many things at once. I mean it. I had honorable intentions to slow down and exist in the present moment but was addicted to the cycle of action for action's sake. I was moving myself through the moment without experiencing it. I meant to follow the Universe's nudges, but I couldn't seem to get myself off the merry-go-round. Until that Saturday morning, 4 stair steps from the landing, when I tripped my way off the merry- go-round by getting lost in a TODO LIST that had no place on that staircase. For my distracted efforts, I ended up with 2 torn ankle ligaments, an abundance of free time, and a front row seat to the present moment.

When I limped, hobbled, and finally crutched my way to my seat, what awaited me was an opportunity to notice what was far beyond my physical dis-ease. I had to go within to see that there was an undeniable itch that came from feeling glued to a transitional chapter of life I thought I'd have cleared. There was also a bucket of discomfort that went hand in hand with fighting against surrender,TRUE SURRENDER, because it felt a bit too out of control. That was when I understood why falling down those (thank goodness only 4) stairs was the only way, I would stop. Stillness hadn't been comfortable for me for a long time, so I had to have any other option taken off the table. I needed to be still to hear myself again, but it wasn't the me that had been multitasking and making plans, it was my inner knowing...my higher self...my best self. I had left the magic that comes from a collaboration with my own higher self, and it showed. My stressed "wisdom" wasn't cutting it. I couldn't see or think expansively. When I left my higher self in pursuit of a quicker ride to this chapter's end, I abandoned my divine self and therefore the Divine Timing that goes along with her.

In order to learn from this situation, I needed to meet myself again and find peace.

 "Give yourself a gift: the present moment.”

Marcus Aurelius

Once I embraced that needed to surrender, I met the magic and the moment, and let myself exhale into it (I wasn't given a choice to, thank goodness), miraculous things happened. I got the rest I needed and found that I had space to dream again. Because I could only handle doing one thing at time, I was reminded of how important it was to focus and devote my time to what was in front of me. I was able to enjoy what was and that it was enough right there and then, and it felt great! I gave myself permission to let the current moment (and the current expression of myself) breathe.

I had forgotten what it felt like...it felt like home.

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As I write this post, my ankle is mostly healed, and I am back to my routine but I have come back into it in a different energy. I still struggle with rushing and thinking ahead more than serves, but my awareness of these imbalanced patterns has deepened, and I am able to draw myself back and return to my center and to the moment I am in. I want to create a future...my future, from the moment I am in now and all that I am learning and appreciating. Inspiration exists all around, and I want to shift how I see what I see.

Out of survival mode and into thriving...

I hope that you'll invite these words into your sphere so that you may embrace gratitude that have you have the opportunity to experience each moment your life...to find and appreciate your unique journey. Open yourself up to that collab with the awesome Universe, and let the magic rain down!

xoxo